tomorrow the show must go on. its the opening night. and even if your dad pass away, as a performer, a professional, you get your arse on stage, and you do what you gotta do.

everyday i go to the gallery and i learn new things. and it just feels so good, that youre constantly learning. everything becomes a challenge for you. and its fun like that. its interesting that way. it makes you want to do your best.

at times it become very tiring. the dragg during bumm-in. the "you cant go anywhere else" feel irritates you. and all you wished for was for the week to come to an end. i dont know if any of you felt the same while doing your attachments, but well, yesternight while at the preview, something electric went thro me. something happy. something proud. something that i cant describe. it was so subtle, but you know it was there for sure. it felt like how love should feel. (: and i was happy. it was then that it dawn upon me, i wasnt there working the performers, or for my boss, i was there to see the show come to life and to be part of it. it was really weird cos in my heart i thought i just wanted to end the week, i was tired, bored and restless. and like, throughout the show, i just did what i could do, to my best abilities. somehow or another, whilst working, that unconsiciously morphed into "literally working FOR THE SHOW".. and only as the performance came to its end, and i finally gotten to sit down and full appreciate the second last show, that that emotion knocked on my heart. i was a happy girl. (:

yknow what, it really isnt about me doing good. but man... i can put to words how bigG has helped me out so much over the past few days. and to see his blessings work in my life. its just so amazing. thank you bigG. without you, i would have been totally lost and absolutely not feeling any that i am feeling right now. i love you.

[ps. one thing i learned for sure through this attachment was to never get too emotionally attached to your performers. artistes by nature are an emotional wreck, and during the show, you need to be their standing support. so toughen up my little girl, and be that woman you were made to be.]

picts from the past few days.


 

"When you walked
away,
the world felt
so much more quieter.
So much more peaceful.

 

im extremely tired. bumm-in was crazy. there was so much funn munching on Mister Potatoes and drinking non-chilled Pierre. we received tons of food stuff from them as they were our sponsors. so yeahh. im even more glad that while having lunch, i also got to learn more about our festivals and how we should work things around to gain sponsorship. to as much fun tho, one thing im looking forward to, will be having it come to an end. till then.. im a slave to my own will. ):