Game or Not:

10. hold onto me like you've never done before.
09. go to town in your boxers.
08. getting lost with me on random bus rides.
07. bring me out on a holiday without planning.
06. eat pork
05. sing me a non-deathmetal song at your deathmetal concert/gig.
04. sleep in with me watching movies and doing absolutely nothing on your working day.
03. sneak me into an Rrated movie.
02. dance with me in the middle of the bugis fountain.
01. look me in the eye and tell me je'taime.

and not lie.

im tired and im out.

as hard as i try to be, i know it will never be. hoping to escape my fate (the one that had once caught hold of me and has now become my "past"), never seems to cease its chase. so i guess this is a sign. my sign telling me not to wait, not to hold on, and definitely not to hope.

so im gonna wrap my emotions up in a plastic bag, as i always do. along side with my hopes and believes, i will throw them all into a trash can; the trash can at the back of my heart.

maybe, just maybe, im a non-believer after all.
[i like to tell myself i am, and pretend to be. but sometimes, deep down, a silent whisper tells you that you will never be. today was bitter-sweet.]

im gonna admit, i know that you are more capable then you look. i dont feel the need to watch over you 24/7 despite you constantly showing and telling you need help. just believe, baby, and everything will pull thro. im supporting you, but i dont need to be your mommy. you can run, you can fly, you are more than you think you are.

im gonna believe.. do you? its different now.

bbb: no they dont. my hands are always kept to myself. but its the look, they keep calling out to me.
ccc: hmm.. is it really? i dont hear anything.

hahhahah. its moments like these that makes me smile.